I wore the only dress I had that seemed semi-decent
It rolled up around my neck but hung dangerously low
so I pinned it
pin pin
fix it.
But nothing could fix your absence.
You were supposed to lift us.
I looked to you to save us.
You’d gone so far already…
Was it really that much to ask?
But mother effer, this life is so cruel
it doesn’t abide by our rules
Why won’t you do my bidding?
SO I won’t have to
Grieve
Someone like you.
I grew up in East Los.
I thought I was used to this.
The loss.
The end.
But no,
don’t you see?
You left a large gaping hole.
And it hurts,
because try as I might
I won’t ever fill it for those that loved you.
How dare you?
How dare you?
Leave?
Susana Benavidez 