The blue in the sky was reflected in the glimmering water in the ocean, the bridge towering over this natural beauty, the air crisp and chilly as I ran past. I could feel the wind pushing against me; my limbs were growing cold and stiff in the early morning San Francisco weather. I kept looking around me and was entranced with every small detail: the stands in the farmer’s market, the purple figs, the fiery red and sunny yellow cherry tomatoes, the dazzling flowers in a multitude of colors, and the intense faces of the runners as they flew down the boardwalk.
I wanted everything around me seared in my mind so I could recall this moment over and over and feel you close when I thought of you.
I didn’t look at you; I wanted to suspend the feeling of knowing that you were next to me without having to turn for confirmation. I wanted to take this moment with me and recreate it in my morning runs. So I could run swiftly and imagine you next to me without having to realize you were gone.
When we stopped at the edge of the pier and you turned and smiled at me I knew I wanted to treasure you forever in my heart. I wanted to lock away that smile in my heart so it would warm me when it grew cold and lonely. The crinkling around your kind eyes told me that you are the type of quality person I have always coveted and hoped for, the company I had only previously dreamed of.
You led me to your favorite attraction and I could smell and hear them before I saw them. The playful barking of the sea lions still plays in my mind and makes me break out into a wide smile at the thought of their piling heap of bodies slipping and sliding and competing for comfort amongst each other.
You bring so much happiness into my life and I don’t question it. I openly welcome it and hope that we are equally worthy and up to the task of carrying this through because I cannot imagine a more earthly happiness than when I am next to you, than when I am in your arms and feel your bodily heat. Than when I look up to you and see that kind smile full of love towards me, loving me and my imperfections and all.